Hope today's better..

Well, the general consensus is that c25k, When I get home from work sometime this evening I'm going to google it + try to plan some kind of schedule for it that I can print out + stick to!!

Thank you all for your feedback it was much appreciated!

Yesterday was a bomb, I didn't work out or track anything.. it was an emotionally OFF day, crying, & brooding.. it probably doesn't help that it's THAT time of the month, uggg.

Heading to work now, I also need to make my grocery list tonight so I can be sure to get healthy things!! I also want to look up some recipe's.. I thought about getting the Priorfatgirl cookbook! & starting a journey through the 50 recipe's found in it! :)

P.s. Just to clear things up, I don't consider eating a bowl of ice cream(well it was basically a bowl) one day + a tasty cake another, 'Binging' for me binging is like eating 5 bowls of ice cream one day + 8 tasty cakes another. I've had some record breaking binges before, + trust me, as unhealthy as ice cream or tasty cakes may be.. binging to me is eating an overly excessive amount.

~erica♥

Thoughts ?

I want to run. Like, I want to feel that overly accomplished feeling of going out for a run and completing that run(even if it's just around the few blocks around my house) it is my goal to someday be able to run in a run. Not a race so much as just the run's for causes or run's for fun? I want that. Now I've never been a runner. Even at my healthiest weight I wasn't a runner or even interested in the thought. I'm still overweight now, but how can I begin to train my body to run?

I workout, but I don't use the treadmill. I use the elliptical for about 15-30 mins and then strength train, but with the whether improving I think it might be a good idea to start walking around my house again + possibly start jogging some of that when possible to build up my stamina.

Any suggestions from you avid runners?

Yesterday was very low activity. I didn't work out, I didn't walk, I didn't jog. I barely moved from my bed most of the day. I drank only 33.8 oz of water - but at least it was better than nothing.

Yesterday's meals were less than extraordinary:Egg sandwich, 2 slices of cheese, mayo & regular bread.Bowl of green beans for lunch.2 cheeseburgers, lettuce, onion + a little ketchup.

+ then I caved....I didn't even look at the calories in this cuz I knew they'd be ridiculous. But i ate it anyways. hm.

So I'm seeing the pattern in my slightly unhealthy eating. On the positive, I'm not really binging or overeating too much of one thing which is good for me.. on the negative I could do better. Way better.

Hopefully today's better. I'd like to eat healthier, go to the gym after work + possibly even take an evening walk tonight.

Hope everyone has a great day!

~erica♥

So yesterday

For starters lets take a look at what I ate..
100 cal nesquick + a kellogs bar. Plus my vitamin (which I'm really trying to take everyday). I probably should have eaten more for breakfast since overall it was 190 calories. Which isn't much.. but I made up for it I assure you..Lunch was a turkey sandwich on a pretzel roll w/. cheese, A banana + a bottle of water. I will admit this can be improved. Wheat bread for instance.. 1 slice of cheese as opposed to 2 & weighing my meat out or at least only a few slices. Although I'm proud that I through some fruit into it.

Now, in between lunch + dinner I had a total emotional eating binge. I popped the top on the carton of cookie dough ice cream (in my defense there wasn't a WHOLE lot left, yea...) I poured on some chocolate syrup(right in the carton, this tells you what a fragile moment it was) & topped it with some whipped cream(yea stomach ache just thinking about it?). I ate the rest. Emptied the carton and then felt self loathing for being so weak.. but emotionally I felt a little better lmao.
Dinner was a bowl of beef stew, with slices of bread. Now I ended up eating 2 more slices after these.. yea I'm such a great role model of foods lmao.

I'm hoping that being honest about what I'm consuming will help me to want to consumer healthier foods.

On another bright note, I drank 67.6 oz of water yesterday! WOW it's been so long since I've drank that much water.. other than having to pee every 5 minutes it was good lol. I'm hoping to keep up the consumption of water, even if it's just a class or 2 a day it's better then going days without any water whatsoever!I also went to the gym last night! Spent about 15 minutes on the elliptical and then another 45 strength training! Woo! It feels great when I get to go to the gym.. I'd like to go again tonight but after the day I've had today idk. I might just try + go for a short run or something...

~erica♥

Short post, weigh in day!

So today was weigh in day + I'm down another 3lbs :) 270.4! Now if I can just keep it down, I've been within 207 & 275 ish for weeks now, I just want to move on to the 260's already!!! So far this morning, I took a picture of my breakfast lol I am about to go make a sandwich for lunch & take a picture of that. Now the point here for me isn't necessarily tracking as much as being accountable with pictures, I want to track yes but knowing what I ate throughout the day will help me to track. I also have water in the fridge chilling as we speak so that I can begin working more water into my days.

I'm hoping to head to the gym this evening, but that will depend upon vehicle usage + if my mother will babysit for me for an hour.

I didn't get a run in the other night.. I slack. But I do feel very excited + confident getting back into this lifestyle change, I see the end of a plateau on the horizon!

Pictures + daily update later! Hope everyone has a great day.

~erica♥