WARNING: This might turn into a long post, I may try & wrap it up quickly, I really don't know.
Mini Update:
I haven't been tracking my food, I know SHOCKER! I don't know why I feel it's so difficult lately. I've had a lot going on with the kids, school, my ex, ME & I've just been so drained it seems like it takes so much to even track. I hate it, and hopefully can get back on track soon enough. Exercise has also not been a part of my daily routine. I still try to keep my body moving, even if I'm just sitting here I'll shake my leg or flex my feet.. something little but no big workouts or anything. I mentioned before about the Zumba class, it has started but we haven't gone. I have to figure something out with babysitting in order to make the classes. Hopefully I can convince my mom it's something important we should definitely get on. Even if she ends up not liking it, I can still go!
Weigh In:
I weighed in on Monday and lost 2.4 lbs, THAT MEANS I'M OUT OF THE 300'S woohoo!! I can't even describe the feeling I got when I stepped on the scale that morning! ( : a 2lb loss isn't all that much, but I can't expect much when I'm not tracking or working out. I'm surprised I'm even still losing but oh so thankful for it!! Only a few more lbs to go before I reach my first goal weight! It's exciting. It makes me want to make sure I put more effort into it to accomplish this first goal I have so I can get excited about setting a new one and working for that! I really am so glad that I started this journey. It is important to me even if I haven't been making it a priority lately. I hope I can begin to work harder and push more to reach these goals.
Random Thought:
I'm not sure if anyone else feels this way, but there were several times this week that the thought crossed my mind.
Scenario 1- I met a guy on facebook, who added me and we started talking. He lives in my town and had made the comment about taking me out to dinner sometime. Not that I would ever really consider this unless I talked to him for a long period of time.
Scenario 2- An old friend from high school contacted me on facebook and has been subtly trying to flirt. Telling me he liked me in high school and then asking me if we could meet up sometime for drinks or something.
In both of these cases, my first thought when meeting up was mentioned was "You think you wanna meet up until you actually see me & how fat I am" I feel like just because they see my pictures, and because I don't put up body pictures only facial pictures, they don't really know what I look like. So many people tell me they don't think I'm fat purely based on the pictures they see. My face may not show it, but listen here I'm fat. It makes me so uncomfortable because not that I wanted to really meet up with either of these guys, but if I did I would be entirely too uncomfortable showing up a place to meet someone knowing that they probably expect me to be much smaller than I am. I've had this happen before where I got back in contact with an ex via phone & talked for a few weeks before meeting up in person. When we finally did meet up I was second guessing my looks the whole time and not really surprisingly, wasn't called back after. Now, I know that if a guy is going to blow me off based on my weight, he's not worth my time in any way. I am a strong, smart, caring woman and I deserve to have someone love and want me who is going to stand beside me fat or thin. But it doesn't really take away the embarrassment factor of the situation.
Apologies:
I am so sorry that I haven't been blogging as much as I should or even want to. I feel like I'm letting readers down when I don't & I'm going to make an effort to try and blog as often as possible as well as NEVER let a week pass by before I post again. I appreciate every one of my readers & as I've said before I absolutely ADORE the comments. I also love emails so you can message me there anytime!
~erica♥
