QUESTIONS GAME

Woohoo time for some fun on the blogger front!
This is the tag game! Katie @ Getting My Freaking Awesome Body tagged me♥
I'll answer my questions, & then tag some of you too do it too!!

My Answers:
#1. What is your favorite color?
Purple! I adore this color, I feel like it’s the color of my soul

#2. What is your favorite thing about bloggin?
Being able to open up to myself & reach out to others at the same time. It’s like having a life audience!

#3. What is the single best moment of your life thus far?
Every single second of being a mother, is the single best moment of my life, each milestone and day I get to spend with my kids is the best.

#4. What would you buy first if you won a million dollars?
A CAR! Omg I need one badly lmao & then of course a house for me & my kids

#5. Where would you live if you could live anywhere?
Hmm, I would want to live in Puerto Rico, It’s part of my heritage as well as a beautiful place to be.

#6. What is your dream job?
Currently, My dream job is to become a General Manager of a hotel & someday run my own Inn

#7. Dogs or Cats?
Both! I love them both in different ways haha

#8. Do you like cheese? (just to be silly)
Loveeeeeeeeee cheese! Yum!

These are the people I choose♥
Meg @ Status MIA
Monica @ Confessions of A + Sized Girl
Crys @ Bigger Than My Body
Screaming Fat Girl
Weightless
Lyndsay @ Thinspiration

Their Questions♥

1. What song would be the theme song, to the soundtrack of your life?
2. What is something you do, that most people would find odd?
3. What's your favorite genre of movies?
4. If you had to move to another country, which country would you move to?
5. Favorite food for breakfast?
6. Favorite season & why?
7. One thing you got for Christmas as a kid that was important to you?
8. What would your dream vacation consist of?

GO, GO, GO!! :P Have fun ladies

~erica♥

Day 46*; cake cake cake..

I just ate, a huge piece of cake & before that? An ice cream sandwich. Now.. I'm sitting here feeling defeated. I want this so bad! This lifestyle change, this new healthier me. I want to enjoy working out & be able to get up and do it like it's second nature. I read some blogs of people who are working out everyday and loving it! When will that be me? I want to not fiend for the junk, the chocolate, the chips, the sugary, goey, calorie infested yumminess. I'm not doing ANY better on tracking my calories. I really think a large part of this is because we haven't been grocery shopping & wont until next week, so I pretty much eat whatever I can damn the calories involved. I know that saying "I'll start tomorrow" Is a horrible rut to get into, But I need to reevaluate my head. I need to refocus and realize my goals. When I go grocery shopping I'm getting tons of healthy things, I will be sure when I pick an item up & check and see if there is a healthier option, for instance did you know that eggo waffles are now made in whole grain?!!? SAY WHAT? Lol yea me either till this week.

I want so bad to be able to blog all good all the time, and for a while there I did. I seemed to be on top of everything! I was doing so well, so positive, enjoyed working out staying under calories. What.the.hell.happened? I can't even TELL you. I was doing so great and then the next day & for 2 weeks.. I wasn't. It pisses me off.

I did workout yesterday, for like 10 minutes.. I have this desire to sweat my ass off (literally if possible PLEASE) and get that sore ache in my muscles but i don't have the actual ambition to get it. I really wish I knew what was wrong with me lately.

I feel like I'm just whining and complaining, and not doing shit about.. well lets be honest. I am. But i WANT to do things about it, I just DONT. I make no effing sense. I am going to start blogging daily again, I seem to fall more & more off track when I'm not holding myself accountable for the day I've had. I am trying to keep my head up and weather the storm. This will pass, I will get past this & be back on my way to losing the weight soon enough. I can do this.

~erica♥

Day 43*; An early morning post!

I know that weigh day isn't until Monday, but I've started weighing myself almost every morning just to figure out where I stand on the scale. Now, I know that the number on the scale isn't the only thing that matters but I've been feeling like shit to boot. So it's not just the number. Last Monday I was at 307lbs, during the week at one point I had been down to 305lbs I figured I wouldn't lost anymore than that cuz to be honest I haven't been working for it, but today I weighed in and I'm back to 307lbs. Let me tell you what a disappointment I'm feeling. I know that I am the only one to blame and there is sincerely no excuse for not working out or tracking my calories other than I've used every excuse I thought would justify it. It's still early in the day, I'm going to break out my food journal and track my calories today. I have a busy day ahead of a me and I'm not sure I'll be able to fit in a workout but I think I'm determined for it. I miss the pumped up feeling of working out & the overall self satisfaction when I know I'm working on things. I have about 8lbs to go before I'm out of the 300's and I'm not giving up now, 13lbs to go to goal and I've already lost more than that amount since I've started so I know I can do it!!

I'm going grocery shopping sometime this week, I like to get the 100 calories packs, the Healthy Choice fresh mixers, Kelloggs cereal and special K bars, as well as egg whites & fruits and such. What I want from you guys is things you like to get at the grocery store that are healthy for you, low in calories and help you stay on track, so if you can, comment or email me some foods I can try out or even recipes for dinner that are yummy & good for me?!

On a better note, I put on a pair of jean capri's yesterday that I haven't worn... well, ever! They aren't my goal jeans, those are still not working with me lol, and I don't remember how tight these capri's used to be but putting them on yesterday & wearing them all day I know I haven't worn them before I felt amazing in them! Off track or not, the work I've done thus far is already showing in my eyes. It just gets me more motivated to get out of this funk I've been in!

~erica♥