Day 40*; My lovlies!!!

How I missed you so!♥♥♥ Omg, this week has been insane! Besides being busy busy busy, I broke my laptop charger & was without a computer for 2 days! I thought i was gonna lose my damn mind lmao. Anyways, I have been horrible. I think it's been a week or more since I've worked out, when my charger cord broke I stopped tracking calories, I stopped being accountable. I actually could have written a blog entry last night, but I was too busy wallowing in self pity over how bad I've been doing. Pathetic? I think so. I almost skipped blogging again tonight for the same reason, but then I realized how much I miss it, how good it is for me & how the people who read my blog might be disappointed. This blog was created to keep me accountable with myself, so not wanting to blog because of messing up? That's a sure fire way to get myself back up in weight and off the journey, which is the farthest thing from what I want. So here I am again, saying tomorrow will be better and making myself accountable again. (side note, I just realized it's only been 3 days since I blogged, & i felt like it's been weeks haha, see how much blogging has come into my daily routine?!)

I feel like I'm saying that shit every other week. "been off track, getting back on" It makes me feel like a failure until I realize that, even though it annoys me to get off track so often, I'm still doing enough getting back ON track to lose the weight. And maybe overtime it wont be so ridiculous that every other week I'm falling off. I have the weekend yet before weigh day, my goal is going to be to try & workout everyday until weigh day! plus stay on caloric track ( :

~erica♥

Day 37*; Weigh Day!

I really don't know why, but I feel so chipper right now! haha. I feel like my soul is smiling. It's amazing what one day can do! I got my food journal & started using it today! I wanted to wait until weigh day to use it, I went wayyyyyyy to under my caloric intake today & i sighed about it for a second & then said "damnit. I will do better tomorrow♥" I also didn't get to work out, but again tomorrow is a new day!!

As for weigh day.. I am proud to announce that I LOST 4LBS!!! How insane right? I barely worked out this week & complained just about everyday that I wasn't tracking my calories & wasn't too sure how I was eating either. But I did it! 4lbs down, now at 307 lbs. ONLY 7 MORE LBS TO GO BEFORE I'M OUT OF THE 300's omg! How freakin' exciting! ( :

My mini goal this week is to get myself up to 8 cups of water a day, I tried today & didn't succeed yet, I got to 7 but I might just be able to achieve that goal ;) The food journal I got has an area to mark how many cups of water you drink per day! I thought that was amazing. I wanna get my water intake back up & stick to it. Whenever I'm getting the recommended amount of water I have more energy & feel 100x better! I think I'm gonna go a week without logging it & just use my food journal & see what happens. If that doesn't help me achieve it then I will make it a bloggers goal, & add a side box about it.

~erica♥