Getting off track a month into the journey is never good.
I feel defeated lately, I've gone more days without working out than I have doing it. I haven't been tracking (which we all know is one of my biggest issues regardless). I attempted to start a workout the other day and stopped in the middle of it, then went another 2 days without working out. I feel self guilt, anger, frustration and most of all emotionally ridiculous that this is so hard. Obviously, if it were easy all people would be on the journey to being healthy & we know that's just not the case.. it takes a certain type of person to push through to achieve what they want especially when it comes to health and fitness.
There is a difference, I need to put that into my head in cement. I make mistakes and lose focus but I still want for the same goals I always have and I still have the drive to push forward towards them.. this is the main different from my past. In the past, I would let this set back screw me. I'd stop blogging all together so I didn't have to be accountable for my slip ups, and I'd continue on the lifestyle that hasn't gotten me anywhere but uncomfortable in my own skin.. I know I've said this before but I feel like I can't stress enough.. failure can either make you or break you. If you fail & accept that, then you have given up, you have failed and let it go.. I've done this.. if you fail and get pissed, angry and motivated, you have decided you are going to achieve the dreams and goals you want - but you accept that you have to work for it. This is what I am doing now.
Yesterday I sat down and searched for more healthy easy breakfast Ideas and wrote them all down, I also wrote down a schedule I want to begin. Continue supreme 90 day the way I'm supposed to, but I also want to plan to do yoga 3 days a week, and start the C25K program which starts off at 3 days a week. Alternating between the 2.. I'd like to do C25K Monday, Wednesday & Friday, Am yoga Tuesday and Thursday and Pm yoga Saturday... that leaves Sunday to either just working out with supreme 90, or take a rest day from all..
Today I plan to look up healthy snacks to pack each day for work and even healthy lunch options to eat when I get home from work as well.. Then my focus will go towards healthy dinner ideas for the family. Tonight we are having grilled chicken mixed with broccoli pasta & cheese sauce.. maybe not the MOST healthiest but definitely not the worst either.
Working out today whether I like it or not, actually, you know what? Working out as soon as I finish this blog post. No excuses, no putting it off.
Supreme 90 day, Tabata Inferno - it is going to KILL me, and then it will be done until next time ;)
Always remember, it may be hard, it may hurt, it may be a pain in the ass.. but if you just DO IT, then it will be over & you can move on.. each day I need to tell myself this, just do it, and it will be done... till next time ;)
~XO
Erica♥
