Saturday Workout? Check!

Yesterday, I didn't workout. There have been many times that I mentally tried to get into doing this journey again and the first time I slip up, I don't track, I don't work out... whatever it is I stop. Then a few weeks pass and I feel the need to jump back in. My problem all along is the fact that the first time I mess up, I look at it as just not doing it, so I don't do it AGAIN. This time around I've decided if I'm lacking in something I should be doing, I'll cross that day off and move on to the next with the same goals in mind. I'm still having a hard time tracking what I'm eating.. I pay more notice to what I'm eating more of the time now, but still failing to track, OH WELL- tomorrow's another day and I'll keep going and keep striving.

So all last evening I thought about how I was going to wake up and work out today, I HAD TO!

And I did....

 

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I rocked both of these out this morning. I got my workout gear on while the baby took a nap and had my older 2 join in the workout with me!! It was tons of fun! I've now discovered an all new joy, working out with my kids. It gets me fit and I get to laugh at them joining along. After busting out these two, I also did some crunches and reverse crunches.

 

This morning, I woke up to my screaming STARVING 7 month old, fed her, fed my other children, got my coffee, and contemplated if I was really going to work out. I mean, I know I told myself I had to, but believe it or not? I lie to myself A LOT. There is only a split second choice, to say yes or say no. Yes gets me the body I want, the energy I want, the awesome feeling I want to have about all my hard work... no gets me more doubt, more wishing and hoping, and dreaming of finally getting this shit started.

 

 Today I chose yes.

 

YES!

• I didn't track.
• So far I haven't had my goal amount of water for the day, but I WILL go get another bottle of water before the evening is out and drink it to reach that goal.
• I am being more conscious of what I am putting into my body, I may not still be 100% but it's a start. I'm aware and starting to try and put more fruits and vegetables into my diet.
• I did work out, and I look forward to the soreness I hope to wake up with.

 

Tomorrow's goals:

 

-Find an awesome and healthy meal idea to make for dinner.

-Workout.

-Up my water goal to 3 bottles tomorrow. Which is equivalent to 6, 8oz. glasses.

-& of course, TRACK, TRACK, TRACK... damn it.

 

I'm proud of myself. I feel like I'm sincerelhy getting back to it, and I'm mentally prepared to this time. I wont give up, I wont give up.... I can't give up....

 

~XO

Erica♥

 



Why is Chinese food so good?!

I think when people say that losing weight is more mental than anything, I don't think some people realize what that means?

 

Last night after realizing how tired I was, my legs were already sore by this point in the day and I was craving CHINESE FOOD! I love Chinese food and we usually only have it when we go to a buffet but last night I was like OH! There's one in GIANT and I want it. Bam. As after I ate my fill, I stared at the containers for a minute and realized how hard it is to change your lifestyle when you feel like you'll be missing out more often on tons of foods that you just LOVE to eat. When I lost the weight the last time I did not "Diet". It's called a lifestyle change, it's an entire change of most of what I consume... Don't get me wrong, if I still wanted a piece of chocolate cake once in a blue moon I could have it and if I wanted a Chinese day I let myself have it! In Moderation. I picked a day, one day a week, that I could have a free day, ESPECIALLY if I worked hard all week at eating healthy and working out. I wouldn't binge on that day and stuff myself like a piggy, but I would allow myself a food I love that's not healthy for me, that's high in calories or what have you.

 

My point is that for some people, food addiction is a serious issue. I love food, I'm an avid comfort food eater. I'm your typical 'I'm upset, where's  my Ben & Jerry's?' Kinda gal! So when people say to me about how mental this journey is, I feel like I more than anyone know that....

 

So I have decided to allow myself starting once a week to indulge at moderation, and as I progress farther into this journey and this lifestyle change, I will come to the mental understanding that I can indulge here or there on any given day in life as long as it stays strictly an occasional indulgence. People who grew up in healthy homes or were introduced to a lifestyle change early on, they have it more programmed into them that healthy eating is normal and unhealthy eating isn't illegal but on occasion nice - I don't have that luxury just yet so for me I have to restrict MOST of my unhealthy indulgences for once a week throughout this journey... at least to start. I know it may seem childish or even ridiculous for me to do this, but honestly - if I don't I'm just setting up my own failure. I would fully enjoy finding healthy substitutions for my favorite foods or snacks that taste like things I like or possibly even better! That would make things much easier in the long run.

 

 

On another note: My legs are KILLING me this morning, and ohh boy have I missed that feeling!

Yesterday morning when I went jogging for my whole 3 minutes I felt weak and defeated, but this morning... feeling the burn and pull in my legs. Having that almost constant need to stretch and move my calves mostly.. I know I did something to my body. And I want more!

 

Later today, I intend on going online and finding some workout routines... I don't know why getting into a workout groove is seeming to be so awkward for me right now but I will adjust.

 

Today's goals are to get healthy meal plan ideas, find workout routines I can do that are effective, drink more water!! & Possibly, get a workout in today even if it's just another 15 minutes...

 

 

~XO

Erica♥

It's like post 1, but really 99? :)

So.... Let's start this journey off right. So far I have done absolutely nothing needed to be done towards living the healthy lifestyle I've been talking about. It's OBVIOUSLY easier to mentally work out, why can't that work? The amount of time I have sat my big ass on my couch and thought about what workouts I'd like to do (Mentally of course, not actually lol!) I could be at my IDEAL weight by now. Yea, if only. I know you have to work for everything you want in life. The kicker of this is when it comes to ANY emotional ordeal, any issue or circumstance I must work towards getting through or attaining something I'm on it - wanna get the fat girl to sweat? Not unless it's for an orgasm!

  Now that all my negative thinking is out the door at the start, I want to point out that being healthy is something you have to work for.. I have no delusions about my situation. I am where I am because I like chocolate cake and being sedentary. But those days are over (poor cake :( ) I have made the choice to put the effort in to get to a weight I am comfortable with, but most of all to be healthier. To have more energy for my kids, to feel better, to leave the constant fatigue from carrying around more weight than I should and have energy again. Time to take action! This morning I woke up earlier than I ever usually do JUST to work out. I didn't make it far only a 10 minute workout broken down like this:

-Headed outside with all the ambitions of jogging/power walking for 10 minutes. First time? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Made it 3 minutes, alternating between jogging and power walking before I was finally like OH HELL NO!
but I didn't give up
-Came inside and lifted my 3lb weights in several different ways for about 10 reps each... enough until my arms started to feel like they were shooting flames up my arm. - After that I did some crunches (no I didn't count, I just DID.)
- Then I did some light stretching and what have you. In all my morning 'workout' was about 15 minutes long.. It's not much but when you're used to doing NOTHING it's better than that ;) I plan on getting my workouts much more organized. Right now I'm more interested in shocking my body at the fact that I'm doing it at all!!


Another great thing I did this morning was drinking an entire 16.9oz of water before even having my coffee.. WHAT?

Anyone who knows me knows I LOVEEEEEEEE, times a thousand, my coffee.. But I'd be completely lying if I didn't admit that on my last go 'round with this journey.. Drinking water alone helped me feel more energetic, flushed out my system. The effects of water are outstanding! I just usually dislike the plain taste of it unless I'm dying I.E. workouts.

Weighed in this morning at 299.8 lbs.

Under normal circumstances I would be cringing at this # & I am in a way - but I've whooped it's ass before and I will do it again. I just need to keep my focus.

Taking body measurements and updating them this morning as well..

Goals to start my journey:
Daily water intake goal - Currently starting at mostly 0, upping it to AT LEAST 33.8 oz a day which is equal to two bottles of water, a person SHOULD drink 64 oz a day but if I start at that my body will have nothing to look forward to :)

Begin tracking my calories, this I going to be one of the hardest things, I have 2 food journals and I always just end up forgetting to use them, I need to staple one to my side. If anyone reads this and sees this, please send random texts to remind me to be tracking at any time of the day!!

Set up a workout plan suited to my level, level 0 anyone??!

Collect healthy dinner recipes for the family.
One of my issues is that I assume since I am the one that needs to loose weight I am the only one who should eat healthy, I've changed that thinking. I enjoy eating for dinner whatever I have cooked and am feeding my boyfriend and my children, and I sure ain't cooking 2 meals! So I need to start a collection of healthy meals to start trying and saving the ones we all like!


My logic may be flawed but again, AT LEAST I'M WORKING AT IT. So anyone who doubts me can kiss my booty and any one who thinks I'm 'doing it all wrong' can suck an egg. Every person is different and adapts differently to changes in their life.. it is up to us all to find our way and I intend to find mine one way or another, to a healthier happier Erica!

This is my start, my ode to a better me!

Starting today....

 

~Erica♥