Today has been a horrible day food wise. My first meal was from McDonalds, & I should have known then that it was going to be down hill.. which it was. Now it's the end of the night and as I reflect on the meals I've eaten today I'm considering tracking with photos again. I know i've done this several times and each time, I just stop after the first few days. It's hard to be so accountable for what I'm putting in my body, to know that even if it's unhealthy and totally off track I would have to post about it here. I am one of those people who tend to blog on positive notes, but when I feel as though I'm failing I step away from my writing. It's shameful, I may not know my readers personally, or have ever even had negative comments or judgment come at me from posting about a bad day or bad meal as I know some of you have... It's just hard to share with others that I'm I failed a day or a week somewhere a long the line. I need to change my mentality with this, someday I hope to not be failing at all and to be that focused and strong that I am doing everything I need to be doing on point all the time no exceptions. But until I get there I will learn to blog on the bad days just as much as I do on the good. I deserve to be honest with myself and with all of you.
On another topic, I am so absolutely jealous of those of you who have workout buddies, or people who are sharing the same journey right there with you. I went on SparkPeople today and started adding tons of people who live in and around my area. I so badly want to make some great friends that I can call and head to the gym with, or plan days of hiking or even healthy lunch dates. Someone who I can call and text and any number of ways of getting in constant whenever I just want to talk about the journey or even have them kick my butt when needed. Some days I want to work out, so badly I just can't find it in me to do it, but a few times I've had friends tell me "Just go do it now." or "work out. now, you'll feel better" Simple statements like that from people I care about at certain times when I need to hear them the most really do help me step up my game. I thought about how it might be fun to have someone to text at each meal even and say "I'm having (food names here) for breakfast! only (this many calories)! what are you having?" But none of my close friends who I text with or talk to regularly are really sharing in the same journey as I. I have a few friends who talk about diets from time to time, or who say that they need to do something about their weight but are not actually ready to do something about it. Hmmm just thinking out loud I suppose.
No workout today, I had a 'blah' feeling most of the day, I blame it all on that MCD breakfast. I think I've learned my lesson.
~erica♥
Friday, October 8, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Day 82*; Reaching Goals!!
Not to much time to blog tonight, It's been a busy day & I'm exhausted. But I am staying on track & I worked out twice so far this week!!! My water challenge isn't going the way I'd hoped but hopefully with tracking it, and having to put these pathetic numbers up for you guys it will kick my hiney into wanting to drink more!! Anyways, the real reason for this post was....
I DID IT!!! I now fit proudly into my goal jeans! They are still a little tight, but not unwearable and I LOVE the way they feel on my thighs. I put them on the other day, just to see if they would fit because all of my pre journey jeans are starting to be so loose they fall off & I haven't yet been able to go shopping for a belt, so I really didn't want to have to be pulling my pants up all day. I tried them on, nervous of course.. almost not breathing because that breath would have hope in it and I didn't want to be disappointed. But they fit!!! OMG RIGHT?! It was so exciting & of course now I rarely want to take them off haha! I have another pair of jeans in mind for my next goal ;) but I'm gonna give these bad boys a little time to get even loser on me before I set up the next goal. Thank you all so much who have started the jeans goal with me & have now seen it succeed! This --> GOAL JEANS <-- was the initial posting of the jeans on August 10th & now, 2 months later I reached it. It's my first weight loss goal reached && boy oh boy does it feel good!! :D 295lbs here I come!!
~erica♥
I DID IT!!! I now fit proudly into my goal jeans! They are still a little tight, but not unwearable and I LOVE the way they feel on my thighs. I put them on the other day, just to see if they would fit because all of my pre journey jeans are starting to be so loose they fall off & I haven't yet been able to go shopping for a belt, so I really didn't want to have to be pulling my pants up all day. I tried them on, nervous of course.. almost not breathing because that breath would have hope in it and I didn't want to be disappointed. But they fit!!! OMG RIGHT?! It was so exciting & of course now I rarely want to take them off haha! I have another pair of jeans in mind for my next goal ;) but I'm gonna give these bad boys a little time to get even loser on me before I set up the next goal. Thank you all so much who have started the jeans goal with me & have now seen it succeed! This --> GOAL JEANS <-- was the initial posting of the jeans on August 10th & now, 2 months later I reached it. It's my first weight loss goal reached && boy oh boy does it feel good!! :D 295lbs here I come!!
~erica♥
Monday, October 4, 2010
Day 79*; bunches of stuff!
Yesterday
My niece's birthday party was yesterday. I know.. I KNOW you're thinking it too right?... CAKE, AHHHHH!!!! Yea, so was I. I did well for breakfast, but then I had to run around and do gift shopping, pick up my kids from their nan's and head over to the party so I skipped out on lunch which I stressed about for a few seconds. I know that having steady healthy meals are going to be the baby steps that help lead me to success. Anyways, I get to my sisters house, for starters she made mac & cheese & hot dogs as the meal. Great. She's trying to ruin me! lmao, so I chow down, I had to eat something I was starving, and I didn't want to be like oh no no no, you must accommodate my healthy diet. So I ate it, it was actually delicious & I figured since I skipped lunch I could afford the extra calories. Before I even left my house, I had decided no cake. I didn't need it, or even really want it. Then, after eating food.. seeing the cake.. I said "okay, okay.. self.. one SMALL, TINY, TEENY, MINUSCULE, little piece." Well, as my sisters cutting the cake my moms putting ice cream on the plate &
then just shoves the plate in my face. Before I even had time to think at all, I grabbed the plate.. went.. sat down & almost inhaled all of the yummy goodness that is cake with whipped topping & ice cream. Damn. The cake won that battle... I WILL HAVE MY REMATCH!. LOL.. Yea the dramatics really are necessary.
Today
I did pretty well today. Not wonderful, but pretty good. Breakfast & lunch went off without a hitch. Breakfast was, egg whites on an everything bagel thin with cream cheese and a 100cal choc. milk. Lunch was a healthy choice frozen meal with a bottle of water. I had coffee for brunch and a yocrunch & broccoli and cheese as a snack after lunch, which came to about 900cals. Then my mom made corn beef & rice for dinner. uhhhh SO GOOD! I measured out 2 servings of rice and topped it with a little corn beef... and THEN realized how good it tasted & went back and loaded my plate back up. I dislike my small defeats rofl. But I can deal with them.
Weigh Day!!
Mhm, I am officially back down to 299lbs!! Out of the 300's!! :D This time I plan on working hard to make it to goal before the end of October. That's a loss of 4.6lbs in 3&1/2 weeks. So doable! Just stay focused. Work hard & I can be all over that bad boy in no time! & Then on to bigger goals & a smaller waistline!
Water Goal
I haven't exactly been reaching my water goal. When you go from barely drinking water to downing it, it takes some time. I'm not discouraged with the slow start, 48ounces is a good jumpstart. I'll try and kick it up more tomorrow!! I've done it before so I know I can. I also know what positive affects water can have on my body as well as my emotional & mental self as well as my energy levels!
Nutritionist&&Working out
So I called & made a nutritionist appointment today! I go next week to see this wonderful woman. I'm a little nervous.. I have no idea how it will go or even what a nutritionist does. But I know that one way or another it will help me a long on my journey. I'm not sure if I will have to continue seeing her or if it's just a once and done thing, I really am clueless here, excited, but clueless. ANDDDD ladies & gents.. I WORKED OUT TODAY! OHHHH it's been too long, and tomorrow I will probably be sore. But I'm looking forward to that. I don't know why I love that feeling, but it's addicting! I only worked out for 10 mins, of a 30 day shred video that's on demand. I can work out longer but it really depends on the workout. Either way, I am SO out of shape... but it's a work in progress!! :D
~erica♥
My niece's birthday party was yesterday. I know.. I KNOW you're thinking it too right?... CAKE, AHHHHH!!!! Yea, so was I. I did well for breakfast, but then I had to run around and do gift shopping, pick up my kids from their nan's and head over to the party so I skipped out on lunch which I stressed about for a few seconds. I know that having steady healthy meals are going to be the baby steps that help lead me to success. Anyways, I get to my sisters house, for starters she made mac & cheese & hot dogs as the meal. Great. She's trying to ruin me! lmao, so I chow down, I had to eat something I was starving, and I didn't want to be like oh no no no, you must accommodate my healthy diet. So I ate it, it was actually delicious & I figured since I skipped lunch I could afford the extra calories. Before I even left my house, I had decided no cake. I didn't need it, or even really want it. Then, after eating food.. seeing the cake.. I said "okay, okay.. self.. one SMALL, TINY, TEENY, MINUSCULE, little piece." Well, as my sisters cutting the cake my moms putting ice cream on the plate &
then just shoves the plate in my face. Before I even had time to think at all, I grabbed the plate.. went.. sat down & almost inhaled all of the yummy goodness that is cake with whipped topping & ice cream. Damn. The cake won that battle... I WILL HAVE MY REMATCH!. LOL.. Yea the dramatics really are necessary.Today
I did pretty well today. Not wonderful, but pretty good. Breakfast & lunch went off without a hitch. Breakfast was, egg whites on an everything bagel thin with cream cheese and a 100cal choc. milk. Lunch was a healthy choice frozen meal with a bottle of water. I had coffee for brunch and a yocrunch & broccoli and cheese as a snack after lunch, which came to about 900cals. Then my mom made corn beef & rice for dinner. uhhhh SO GOOD! I measured out 2 servings of rice and topped it with a little corn beef... and THEN realized how good it tasted & went back and loaded my plate back up. I dislike my small defeats rofl. But I can deal with them.
Weigh Day!!
Mhm, I am officially back down to 299lbs!! Out of the 300's!! :D This time I plan on working hard to make it to goal before the end of October. That's a loss of 4.6lbs in 3&1/2 weeks. So doable! Just stay focused. Work hard & I can be all over that bad boy in no time! & Then on to bigger goals & a smaller waistline!
Water Goal
I haven't exactly been reaching my water goal. When you go from barely drinking water to downing it, it takes some time. I'm not discouraged with the slow start, 48ounces is a good jumpstart. I'll try and kick it up more tomorrow!! I've done it before so I know I can. I also know what positive affects water can have on my body as well as my emotional & mental self as well as my energy levels!
Nutritionist&&Working out
So I called & made a nutritionist appointment today! I go next week to see this wonderful woman. I'm a little nervous.. I have no idea how it will go or even what a nutritionist does. But I know that one way or another it will help me a long on my journey. I'm not sure if I will have to continue seeing her or if it's just a once and done thing, I really am clueless here, excited, but clueless. ANDDDD ladies & gents.. I WORKED OUT TODAY! OHHHH it's been too long, and tomorrow I will probably be sore. But I'm looking forward to that. I don't know why I love that feeling, but it's addicting! I only worked out for 10 mins, of a 30 day shred video that's on demand. I can work out longer but it really depends on the workout. Either way, I am SO out of shape... but it's a work in progress!! :D
~erica♥
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