:) no fancy dancy title.

I don't want to lose weight. I don't want to JUST lose weight. I want to get muscle. I want to be strong. I was looking at this site, it's pretty cool, it shows pictures of actual people at different heights and weights so you can get visuals on what it looks like.. of course I went to my height and looked at all the images of people from the weight I am now, down to the weight I want to be - looking at the images of the people at the weight I want to be, the first words out of my mouth, out loud, "Well I hope I'm a lot more muscular and strong than they look.. I wanna be ripped." hahaha! This journey is NOT just about losing weight, or fitting smaller sizes, yea that's part of it but if I got to my ideal weight and looked like a wet noodle for spaghetti, I wouldn't be happy with that either. I want muscle definition, strength, the ability to do things with my body I would of never dreamed of! I know that it's possible too. If I've learned anything so far on this journey, this time around, it's that your body is capable of so much, you just need to condition it to get there. I'm doing the 30 day plank challenge, in 30 days I hope to be able to do a 5 minute plank.. I'm working my body up to it, pushing it a little more each day, getting myself prepared to do the 5 minutes.. if you slowly ease yourself, push a little harder each time, your body gets stronger.. As I said about my supreme 90 day program, the first time around it was torture, the second time? It's still torture, but I can deal with it a lot better. I can push myself now, when in the beginning even trying anything was pushing. Now I can count reps, now I can force more, and if I started it all over again, I bet I'd be even better.. as I continue I'll get better. If your goal is to do pushups do one today, two tomorrow, three the next day and keep going.. over time you'd be amazed at how many push ups you can do!

This morning I decided to look up the correct amount of fruits and veggies per day I should have, as well as what my caloric intake should be and what my protein intake should be for the workouts I'm doing. - aside from NOT tracking like I should be doing, I KNOW I'm not meeting these goals, and in the long run it will only put more problems on me. So from here on out, I plan to document, to be accountable for everything I am consuming. I'm going to take pictures of everything before I put it into my body.. at the end of the day I hope to blog about everything I consumed and the value it's given me, I know it will get tedious, but it's truly the hardest part of my journey right now and I need to correct it.

My current task is to find different things that will help to up my protein.. my fruits and veggies I can do - but according to what I looked up, the protein I should be getting is not even close to what I am!!

Wrapping this blog up, but I am hoping to get another one in this evening! :)

~XO
Erica♥

Just a few GOALS!!

Goal clothes! Or as I like to call them, my non weighted goals. I have a pair of Levi's that come up my thighs, over my butt & ALMOST close, but not quite.. this is my current jean goal - fit these, get another pair of jeans I can wear, & being able to fit my other jeans even better!

 

 

Another unweight goal, is this sweater dress.. I got it at Kmart, on clearance for like  2 bucks. It's an XL, I have always loved the look of sweater dresses but have never been able to wear one comfortably because of all the obscene curves I have. My goal is to be able to fit this comfortably (& Cutely) by October 1st.. that way I can enjoy wearing it almost all fall long :)

I plan to take pictures of me in this dress NOW and then pictures in the dress again on October 1st so show the difference!!

 

My current short term goal weight is 280lbs, which would be a 20lb loss from the start, after that my next goal will be another 20lbs loss to 260lbs. My long term goal weight is to reach what is considered 'healthy' for my height at around 158lbs. At which I will have a BMI of around 24 which is considered 'normal' for BMI's.

 

I do have 'before' pictures, they were really depressing to look at, even though they are of me NOW, I wont share them until I make significant progress and compare myself to them and feel proud that I've come so far, so be on the look out for those sometime in the future ;) lol!!!

 

~XO
Erica♥

 



Jam Packed.

So I couldn't decide whether I wanted to do my update in multiple blogs or one really long one, Well - I've decided to break it up into several different posts to come throughout the day and maybe even into tomorrow depending on how ambitious I am.

 

 

First things first, I did slack off for a few weeks, and almost stopped altogether I got so frustrated with myself. You get to a point where you have basically stopped the journey all but in your head, and it's just so easy to stop it there as well - but I didn't. I made the choice that this time around was going to be different, I wasn't giving up, and especially not without one hell of a fight. I want to be healthier so badly I can taste it, I want to look better, feel better, be stronger, run, jump, play, and be able to kick anyone's ass!!!  So this time, there is no giving up, even with a few slip ups.. not that I want to but if I have to restart every time I get off track I will, as long as it keeps me focused.

 

This leads into my June Schedule I have created.. I haven't wanted to share it without anyone because I don't want people telling me it's too much, it's not to much.. it's several DIFFERENT types of workouts that will help me succeed in different things, at the same time all helping me to lose weight and stay focused.. I didn't want to share it because I didn't want someone telling me that I'm setting myself up for failure by piling on so much in one month. No I'm setting myself up for freaking awesomeness! & If I do get off track, I'm still not failing because in case you missed it, I'M NOT GIVING UP!!! I'll just create a new extensive month plan and start again, until I can do it.

 

June consists of:

 A 30 day plank challenge, starting at 20seconds reaching a 5 minute plank.

Starting Supreme 90 day over, from day 1 to day 30.

Beginning the C25K program to start running.

& am/pm yoga.

 

Monday, Wednesday & Friday consist of Supreme 90 day, plank challenge & C25K

Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday Consist of Supreme 90 day, plank challenge, & yoga

Sunday is just supreme 90 day, & plank.. & both of those have rest days on their own..

 

Yes. It's crazy. & So am I. :)

I needed something drastic. I needed something...

 

Let me just say, yoga is amazing. After working out, and getting my muscles all knotted up, the stretching & muscle pulling (the good kind?) that goes on with yoga is absolutely amazing! Especially my Pm yoga, I might have to make that one 2 days a week instead of Am.. the pm yoga makes me feel soooo relaxed and good. It's amazing.

 

This month I opted for the plank challenges, next month will either be a push up challenge or a squat challenge and I'd like to look into even more 30 day challenges and have one each month. I might redo the plank challenge again with one leg, each side, each day. It's def. fun and compared to my other workouts doesn't really take very long.

 

Another point I must make, because to any of you feeling like you aren't accomplishing anything, to any of you feeling like it's still SO hard and not getting easier, I assure you it is!!!

 

I started the Supreme 90 day program, at the end of April - beginning of May, I did the first 12 days, which include 2 rest days.. now I didn't do them consecutively.. there were a few days I skipped workouts and just jumped in where I had left off, and the first time I did Tabata I had to redo it (which you know if you've read my blog, was hell on me LOL) So it was more like 2 - 3 weeks worth of it, just spread out. Anyways, 12 days and then I slacked for a few weeks, restarting this month I have done the first 2 days with a day of rest and I can tell how much better I am at it now compared to the very first time!!!

 

The first workout was chest/back.. the first time through, I did as many reps as I could while the people on the dvd did theirs.. when they were finished I just stopped. This time around I paused the dvd and got the exact amount of reps in that I was supposed to. A lot of it is 8-12 reps, whatever you can do.. on circuits of 2 or 3 times through depending. I pushed for 12 as often as I could, but I was so proud of myself for that alone!! Wow, change is happening in my, mind & body and it's all for the best! Change may not always be right in front of your face noticeable but if you are trying you are changing.. I couldn't believe it when I did the first two days and I got through them easier than the first time.. now don't get me wrong I am in no way a master at it yet, but I have nothing but pure hope and will power that I will someday be a master at it ;). It's given me so much faith in myself and my health!

 

Patience and Persistence is the key to this journey!

 

^^^^^^^

 

It really isn't supposed to be easy. It's supposed to include failure, pain, & hard work, those are the things that build success, strength,  & endurance.

 

To anyone who doesn't have any faith that I can accomplish what I want, who think I'm all talk, and no follow through - I assure you, I will prove you wrong, even if it took 1000 times of not following through, all I need is 1.

 

To those who support me, who are giving me encouragement and in some cases even guidance, I will make you all proud & amaze you. Because you deserve that for believing in me.

 

& To anyone who just doesn't care? Well whatever, my goals don't waver just because you couldn't care less, this is about me and the person I want to be.... that doesn't NEED approval or denial.. it just needs me.

 

~XO
Erica♥