Day 83*; Bad breakfast...

Today has been a horrible day food wise. My first meal was from McDonalds, & I should have known then that it was going to be down hill.. which it was. Now it's the end of the night and as I reflect on the meals I've eaten today I'm considering tracking with photos again. I know i've done this several times and each time, I just stop after the first few days. It's hard to be so accountable for what I'm putting in my body, to know that even if it's unhealthy and totally off track I would have to post about it here. I am one of those people who tend to blog on positive notes, but when I feel as though I'm failing I step away from my writing. It's shameful, I may not know my readers personally, or have ever even had negative comments or judgment come at me from posting about a bad day or bad meal as I know some of you have... It's just hard to share with others that I'm I failed a day or a week somewhere a long the line. I need to change my mentality with this, someday I hope to not be failing at all and to be that focused and strong that I am doing everything I need to be doing on point all the time no exceptions. But until I get there I will learn to blog on the bad days just as much as I do on the good. I deserve to be honest with myself and with all of you.

On another topic, I am so absolutely jealous of those of you who have workout buddies, or people who are sharing the same journey right there with you. I went on SparkPeople today and started adding tons of people who live in and around my area. I so badly want to make some great friends that I can call and head to the gym with, or plan days of hiking or even healthy lunch dates. Someone who I can call and text and any number of ways of getting in constant whenever I just want to talk about the journey or even have them kick my butt when needed. Some days I want to work out, so badly I just can't find it in me to do it, but a few times I've had friends tell me "Just go do it now." or "work out. now, you'll feel better" Simple statements like that from people I care about at certain times when I need to hear them the most really do help me step up my game. I thought about how it might be fun to have someone to text at each meal even and say "I'm having (food names here) for breakfast! only (this many calories)! what are you having?" But none of my close friends who I text with or talk to regularly are really sharing in the same journey as I. I have a few friends who talk about diets from time to time, or who say that they need to do something about their weight but are not actually ready to do something about it. Hmmm just thinking out loud I suppose.

No workout today, I had a 'blah' feeling most of the day, I blame it all on that MCD breakfast. I think I've learned my lesson.

~erica♥